She might have compared her experience at that moment to the vague, alarmed consciousness that her life was taking on a new form that she was undergoing a metamorphosis in which memory would not adjust itself to the stirring of new organs. Everything was changing its aspect: her husband's conduct, her husband's conduct, her own duteous feeling towards him, every struggle between them— and yet more, her whole relation to Will Ladislaw.
While reading the first ten chapters of MiddleMarch, the difference in the characteristics between Dorothea and Celia made me ponder. The two are in similar ages and have experienced similar life experiences, however, while Celia was more an ordinary girl, Dorothea strongly embraces abstinences, which eventually led to her to the rather too idealized marriage with Mr. Casaubon. But I wonder: what is it that shaped her belief as such? What might be some other elements that shaped Dorothea's believes?